This week I will have my fourth round of chemo.I don’t have cancer. So explaining this treatment has been hard. Deciding to take this route doesn’t make sense to some. And thus, what can already be an overwhelming and isolating option has left me unable to really put words to this current part of my […]

I’m a coffee person. I make a big deal about Jesus. I led worship. I’m a people person.And I love coffee. These are just the Amanda facts that if you’ve spent much time around me in life, you’d have discovered. Last year, when I moved back to West Palm, I didn’t know how long I […]

Yesterday it was troponin. The doctor said my labs showed it to be elevated such to indicate a cardiac event or heart attack within the last 72 hours. The thing is… I went into the Emergency Room to get stitches out. They weren’t even supposed to look at my heart. My legs were very swollen, […]

I know. I know what you’re thinking. In the last year, it’s been pretty clear. I make a lot of decisions and plans that don’t make a lot of sense. A month or so ago, when I was in the hospital with double COVId pneumonia, several people were surprised to see that I was living […]

The last 10 days have been as much a mental and emotional battle as they have been physically painful. I think my mind is overwhelmed by the weight of navigating the pain of the fractures, the logistics of navigating travel, where I’m living, failing health, and finances. How could I have broken my pelvis? I […]

It’s 3 am and I’m laying in a hospital bed. It’s familiar. I’m trying to think how many times I’ve been in the hospital over the past 10 years. Way more than I can count. Over 50 for sure. At least 11 different states as well. There have been years I’ve spent more days on […]